Lyrics & Poetry
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Pour
Ink stained on the side of my scraped hand
Wet paper and the tears are falling
Knots tied in the pit of my stomach
Sing songs that I know no one else can hear
And I can see my breath tonight
Dim light in the corner of a dark room
Stripped naked by the words that pour out
All alone with a broken halo
Left bleeding by the cover of an orange glow
And I can see my breath tonight
Heart beating in the middle of the moment
Mind begging for a thought that makes sense
Doubt waiting for a boy to cave in
Lay frozen with a blanket full of holes again
And I can see my breath tonight
So at least I know I’m still alive
WOKE TO GRAY
I woke up to gray today
And rearranged the letters of your name
But they just fell back into place
And brought with them the image of your face
I woke up to pain again
And tried to shake off dreams I had
To distract myself the best I can
Before the pain of missing you set in
Rocking horses gallop by
Kicking dust up from our lives
Falling pedals hit the ground
Making angels strangers to me now
I woke up to you today
And held my lips so I wont speak your name
But thoughts come in like rolling clouds
And defeat the strength I need to keep this down
I walk with memories today
While the scenes in my mind try to play
The shattered dreams from yesterday
As I build them back with pieces that I saved
Rocking horses gallop by
Kicking dust up from our lives
Falling pedals hit the ground
Making angels strangers to me now
Its always cold on days like this
but the rain that falls around me tucks me in
And all my motions seem to slow
reminding me that I am so alone
Tonight again I sleep with gray
And rearranged the letters of your name
To distract myself the best I can
And try to keep the pain from setting in
Rocking horses gallop by
Kicking dust up from our lives
Falling petals hit the ground
Making angels strangers to me now
PAPER WINGS
When it hurts just to breath
Wilting flowers scatter seeds
When it hurts just to be
Roads that left you far from me
When tracing lines over the scars
Leads you back to a broken heart
When you're losing who you are
And all you have, you don’t want
Let my words find you well
Let them say what I can't tell
Let them hold you close for me
And fly you off on paper wings
And when all that you can hear
Are sounds of sorrow in the wind
The rain that falls on you
Broken glass your looking through
When you’ve stood still for too long
Withered roots you’ve grown
And when your falling on your knees
I send this song to speak for me
Let my words find you well
Let them say what I can't tell
Let them hold you close for me
And fly you off on paper wings
And when the fire turns to smoke
The only light is from your hope
Your screams fall on deaf ears
And no one notices your tears
When the candle's all burned out
The weight you carried pulls you down
And when you understand "alone"
I'll send your wings to fly you home
Let my words find you well
Let them say what I can't tell
Let them hold you close for me
And fly you off on paper wings
Fly with me on paper wings
Blindfolded
There's a veil before me that blinds my sight
It keeps me in the dark but its my design
There's a spark within me that lights my way
Like a dream of a memory soft and faint
And there's something about it when I look at the sky
it seems so far away through these seeking eyes
But when I close my eyes and I look within
I see so much more than I ever did
If there's a piece of you inside my soul
then let me know myself so I can know you more
Timeline
Tomorrow tells me,
“I’m moving on without you.
I’m taking your dreams
I can’t keep waiting for you.
You'll always find me
in the nights that haunt you
I'll be the life that
lives the way you want to.”
Today reminds me,
“You’ll never make it past me.
Tomorrows moved on
and left you alone here with me.
Its over for you.
Just make yourself at home here
and forget the future.
Your dreams have no place here.”
Yesterday whispers,
“Don’t believe what today tells you.
It’s tomorrow
doing its best to fool you,
disguising your dreams
while you think they left you.
But I’m right behind you
to prove this all to you.
Today is tomorrow
and your dreams never leave you.”
Silhouette
In the next life
Will I see you
Will I come back
Will I want to
In the next life
Will I find you
Will I love you
Like I'm meant to
I look back
To the days past
To the dreams that
We both had
for something
That can help me
Find the place
Where you might be
In the space between our tears
In the peace behind our fears
Through the veil that hides our truth
I see the silhouette of you
And all the times we've crossed our lives
All the paths that misaligned
When the stars we are collide
They’ll bring your silhouette to light
Unfortunate
You closed the door behind
To shut out the light
But you didn’t know
You were shutting off my life
I could have run away
But that was my mistake
I guess it’s not that bad
If you say it’s okay
I prayed for God to help me
but he just couldn’t hear me
It was everything you’re too afraid to fear
The body and the mind
They broke when they combined
And there I lay in my own pleading tears
So now I’ll make up all your lies
And put on your disguise
It’s ugly but the only way to hide
I’ll bite down my teeth
pretend I’m in a dream
And claw my eyes out
So I cannot see what’s been done to me
I prayed for God to help me
but he just couldn’t hear me
It was everything you’re too afraid to fear
The body and the mind
They broke when they combined
And there I lay in my own pleading tears
UNANSWERED
It’s in these moments
We get so paralyzed
Abandoned memories
Become the first in line
Every breath we take
Deep as the thoughts we dig
Feeding a bleeding heart
Devours everything
And I should have listened
To the answers that never came
To the deep sounds of silence
That told me everything
It’s in these moments
That we lose clarity
Our selfish answers
Become the truth we seek
While we fall helplessly
Into these hands of fate
That we bind unknowingly
With what we want to create
And I should have listened
To the answers that never came
To the deep sounds of silence
That told me everything
It’s in these moments
We get so left behind
As we skip needles
Across the broken lines
While every moment slips
Right before our eyes
As we stand waiting
For what we think is right
And I should have listened
To the answers that never came
When the deep sounds of silence
Told me everything
Belong
To my friends you know I love you
I could have never made it through without you
In a time I was so far from home
You helped me stand up on my own
Oh Jeffrey , I love you
and for what its worth I miss you
the fights were over, wounds were mending
I never expected such an ending
This was never supposed to end
but now I’m leaving flowers for my friend
And to my family
you know I’m sorry
I wish we could have grown a stronger tree
some limbs are bent and some sections dead
but the shade still comforts me
And I wouldn't change it for anything
even the birds come here to sing
and every fruit that falls gives seed to the truth
that this tree will grow for you
And to you , I miss you
know that I often think of you
and on the nights when time stands still
I linger in it with you.
I have no regrets and hold no remorse
I only wish we could have lived it more
Our nights made dreams
and dreams made songs
I found a place where I belonged
And to my God you tricked me
I thought you were never there for me
but through these eyes that are strained
and tired from the pain
I can see , I can see
you've always been beside me
and this is were I belong